You promised me happiness,

I felt nothing but pain.

You made me lose weight,

but showed me weight gain.

Said I would be popular,

but took away my friends.

Said just another pound,

that repeating never ends.

if life is so good,

then why am I crying?

If this is living for you,

why do you leave me dying?

You shown me my life,

for who you really are.

Nothing but lies and deciet,

cold black heart of tar.

I have served you well,

but know I must go.

You done me wrong,

for that i do know.

Fairwell to thee Ana,

my life is mine.

You do not control me now,

because I am devine.

Lying here hungry ...
My whole body in pain ...
Should probably eat something ...
But I feel to ashamed ...

Starting to shiver now ...
Beginning to shake ...
God how I love this ...
How my body just aches ...

Got up for some cold water ...
Then to take a cold shower ...
Reminds myself that soon ...
I'll be a delicate flower ...

Did 3 hours exercise ...
But I must do some more ...
Still got one pound to loose ...
Like the pound I lost before ...

Whoa, got a dizzy head rush ...
Colors dancing all around me ...
Like little tiny faerie angels ...
Wanting to set me free ...

Oh wow, I'm floating with them ...
Going high up in the sky ...
Look down at my body below ...
For tonight I just died ...

I'm sorry to my friends whom I avoid...

I'm sorry to the people I let down...

I'm sorry for all people I disappoint when I fall...

I'm sorry for all those who have fait in me in my recovering soon,

you are just wasting your time...

I'm sorry for never being there when you need me,

even though you are always there when I need you...

I'm sorry that my eating disorder has killed the bond we used to share...

I want you to know I not completely dead inside...

I will recover sometime...

Maybe not as son you some would like, but I will eventually...

Don't miss me. Don't worry. Don't leave me...

Beacuse when I fall, in case you haven't noticed, I shatter...

And that when I will need you the most... 

I want to get lost and disappear

To a place where noon could ever hear

Can't someone just come and help me

To find the one and only key

Right now I'm way too tired to fight

And I know it wont be better tonight

Please let me be thin and let me be free

Let me understand that this world disturb me

I brought my lovley smile from last year

Now I'm just fucking full of fear

A little girl wish to have the power

To say No when she troughs up in the shower

You better help the girl quite soon

Cause noon one knows what she hides in her room

Bones are beutiful

My drug of choice

Striving for prefection

And I'm driven to

Run to you

In the wrong direction

How does that make you feel

Why can't I make you see?

Mom and daddy look

It's your little girl

Starving for attention

Too much on my plate

Things that I can't face

Starving for attention

I can't be myself

The mirror tells

Lies and says I'm ugly

Am I really here?

I cut my skin

It takes a knife to find me

I can't make me feel

So know I have to bleed

Mom and daddy look

It's your little girl

Starving for attention

Too much on my plate

Things that I can't face

Starving for attention

Hungry empty lost in her pain

She can't tell you

So she slowly fades away

Mom and daddy look

It's your little girl

Dying for attention

To much on her plate

Things that she can't face

Starving for your attention

Carving your attention

She's dying for your atention

Sometimes is never quite enough
If you're flawless, then you'll win my love

Don't forget to win first place
Don't forget to keep that smile on your face

Be a good boy
Try a little harder
You've got to measure up
And make me prouder

How long before you screw it up
How many times do I have to tell you to hurry up?
With everything I do for you
The least you can do is keep quiet

Be a good girl
You gotta try a little harder
That simply wasn't good enough
To make us proud

I'll live through you
I'll make you what I never was
If you're the best, then maybe so am I
Compared to him, compared to her
I'm doing this for your own damn good
You'll make up for what I blew
What's the problem? Why are you crying?

Be a good boy
Push a little farther now
That wasn't fast enough
To make us happy

We'll love you just the way you are...
If you're perfect

Hör du mig skratta ser du mig le,

tro inte att jag mår bättre för det.

Ser du mig växa se rundare ut,

tro inte bara att min ångest är slut.

För allting finns kvar min ilska och gråt,

det kan inte kilona göra nåt åt.

Jag har bra betyg är inteligent,

har bara efter snärta kännt.

Ja undrar allt mer varför finns jag till,

när leva är det sista jag vill.

Men trots alla lögner så kämpar jag på,

jag är ju inte dum det måste ju gå.